the beach with friends, the lake with the BF and working my tail off both in my muggle job and my theatre group
But the other day I had the worst day when it came from fatness and self esteem.
It started when we (the BF and I) went to a local ride park for the day. An annual
tradition for us. We were having fun on all the rides when we got on one ride and the harness wouldn’t fully come down. So I waited there. This has happened once before to me and
sometimes the attendant is just able to push it down enough to click the safety strap on . This time however when he came around he couldn’t. He couldn’t get the safety strap to lock.
He looked at me and I knew what he was going to say but I could tell he was getting nervous about saying it. Finally I said “its not going to fit huh” to his reply “um.. yes.. sorry”.. I could tell he was just as embarrassed as I was. So I got up and left. The worst part was the
seat we were was facing the line up. I could feel have the crowd judging me and the other half feeling sorry for me. So I quietly left and told the BF to stay on the ride since we waiting that long to get on it.
Of course I was a little upset. I was just removed from a ride because I was to big for the harness to fit on properly. But I chose to not let it get to me and continue with the fun day with the BF. But I admit every ride I went on after that I had it in the back of my mind that I would not be allowed to go on it.
Then when I got home my fat day just got worse. When I got home I put my pants in the wash and checked the tag cause I forgot the conditions of washing it. And when I checked the tag it
said Maternity pants.. the most comfy summer pants I have every owned which I bought at a second hand clothing store, which was not in the maternity wear section where in fact maternity pants..
ARRRRRGGGGGGGGG
That was the kind of day I was having on the weekend…
So I could do two things with this. I can be all mopey about it. Complaining about my weight and getting all depressed or I can use it as motivation and learn from this. I decided to do that latter.. I started by cutting off the tag on my pants.. if there is no tag its not maternity pants.. RIGHT!!!