Started when I found out that my BF spent all the money we had saved for the hotel in LA on himself, taking it out of the credit card and going boozing with his buddies, so I had to go into over time saving with that so we had a place to stay in Los Angeles. Second was having someone very close to me say that I am a social disease. Basically, I take to long to tell a story, and when I do I speak verbal diarrhoea, I am boring to be with and his friends think I am crazy.. and not in a good way. I am nothing but an embarrassment. He later claimed that it was drunk and he didn't mean it talk but still, you don't talk to someone like that unless you felt that way, drinking or not. But then again a couple of weeks later (after drinking again) he told me that I speak gibberish and should just learn to keep my mouth shut "like a good girl". Again he said it was drunk talk but.. WTF.. I don't talk to him much anymore.. he claims he is sorry but I can't be hanging with people like that..
That also brought on the feelings that people are avoiding me within my theatre group. Basically because I am no fun to hang around. So I spent two weeks in a dark depression based on the fact I have now been told twice I my life my two people who supposed to care for me that I am something that I fear the most. That girl that everyone avoids..
Next "news" you could say was finding out that the BF hours at work were being cut for the summer season.. Then just to top it off with the cherry on the icing on the cake was finding out that my work visa my not get extended and I may be out of work or worse, forced to return home (which I am not ready for).. I have an appointment with a lawyer this afternoon to sort this out BUT it isn't going to be cheap.. all I want to do is stay in this country and be able to work.. legally.. dam it
So you can imagine one bad thing after the other resulted in all of a sudden its May and I haven't updated my blog in a month.. arrgggg
But there was some good times in the month there.. two days ago the BF found out that he is getting his hours back to what is was before because of a new client of theirs. So we wont be loosing out on as much money as we thought.. The next was going to LA (yes we made it to LA and had a place to stay). And that was soo much fun. I finally made it to Universal Studios and crossed another place off my bucket list. That was a lot of fun and exactly what I needed to perk me up.
Anyway I wont babble on to much but I wanted to let you know that I am fine. Struggling a bit with personal issues and my finances and weight have been on the back burner of late. I haven't lost any weight but haven't gained any either.. and my finances are all over the place at the moment but that's for another time.